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I toss and turn.

Thinking … why so hard?

This tension, burning, desire;

That cannot be fulfilled.

Why?

I can think all night,

I can stay awake.

I want to know why.

Have I seen a sign? Have I loved wrong?

Am I not the person who I though I was?

Am I wrong?

I toss I turn.

I am awake thinking … why do I torment myself?

Is it love?

Have I fallen in love?

Fallin in love with a love I cannot have?

Why?

Why then do I love so?

When I cannot share this beautiful feeling,

the longer this emotional extravagant feeling.

Why must I stay alone? Why must I be in the dark?

Why must I cry inside, outside?

Why are you not here with me? Why did you leave me?

I am sorry.

I am sorry I cannot be like him.

I am sorry I cannot hold you … I cannot change your mind.

I will never hurt you. I can never mislead you.

I will never leave you in the cold.

I will be there to warm you.

Why am I still here? You are with the one you love.

But you tell me you love me too.

I toss I turn.

I am alone again. So in the cold.

So far away … so alone.

Seeing your smile brings me back.

Seeing him sends me away in a corner,

In a ditch out in the cold.

Looking in.

Can I hold on? Can I?

When you choose to go the other way.

Away you have always known.

Then why should I be so sad, if you are so happy.

Because I know I fill your every desire – you told me.

I know your every touch – you told me.

I know where to go – you told me.

I know where to kiss you – you told me.

I know you love me – you show me.

Yet that does not change the way you feel about him.

You are still with him.

Why?

I ask myself.

You see sad at times with him, you come to me.

I want you to be happy.

– I toss I turn

Although my life has seemed so shallow and so distant

Love has been taken from me once to the point of no return

And I have fallen in love once again

With you I have shared my thoughts my deepest secrets

I found comfort in your presence

With your smile I found warmth

Your touch game me a calmness in a sense of reassurance

Your words are so wise spoken with grace

I have not found another woman quite like you

You are different – you are your own person

There is not another woman that could bring me the

Happiness you have shown me

I forever will love and cherish our friendship

Our closeness and our moments

With you I have learned to accept lifes precious moments

For if they are over looked they may pass us by

I have found love once again

In you!

– Once Again

You have not had to make a decision

like this before.

So how can you choose?

One path leads you to …

Your every desire, a for filling destiny of:

Happiness, love, attention, affection,

and of passion.

A straight smooth path with no worries.

The other path is one you know.

The only one you have known.

You feel secure.

How do you step away from something you have

always known.

This path may be rocky filled with confusion,

seems to be out of energy.

Split into confusion you must decide.

Where should you go?

What should you choose?

Only you can decide.

– Path to Destiny

I used to see my dreams, and everything I had in store

Recently my mind had been clouded, and I don’t know why

Could it be the recent events, between you and I

I know it has not been easy, not quite that smooth road

But that didn’t mean you had to leave me here out in the cold

You stirred my mind, my reflection too

I have to get back on track, and I know what to do

You told me to leave and not to have hope

Well this is the only way I know how to cope

I want my reflection back, out the window when I look

And give back my sanity and dreams that you took.

– Reflection

A crisp light kernel, elegant and sheer

A granulate of sand, becomes closer and near

A look much closer will certainly reveal

A factor of meaning, a love so real

For many years it took to make this change

Resistance of patience has heard no rage

My love is strong, like a kernel of sand

Expressing emotional content, in your hand

I walk with you through the sands of time

A mystery of love that is forever mine

I am here to make you happy when you are sad

Throughout the good times, and all of the bad

When you are down and blue, or have the flu

I will make you better; I will carry you through

Through this notion; forbidden as well

How much our love will grow, only time can tell

A gentle stroke through your soft Angelic hair

Know in time, I will forever be there

Forever in a heartbeat I hold you close in hand

My precious love for you lies deep within this man

I walk with you in the sands of time

I will walk with you forever with you hand in mine.

– Sands of Time

You tell me how you feel

Then we are through

I am not even sure what I am going to do

Did you think about me too?

This isn’t the end

Was that pretend?

Many letters to you I write

Do you read them in bed at night?

I’m mad that

I’m happy

For once again I am not sure

What it is all about anymore

You are forgiven

All is forgotten

Until you do it again

Then what?

I want you always

Not just now and then

– Now and Then

The beautiful things I said

To bring that smile

Upon your face

That lights a room in

Endless ways

That lifts your spirits

High above

And shows you countless

Ways of love

Takes your breath away

With a single kiss

And shows you a lifetime

Of warmth and bliss

– Should be me

The frustration is here, and times are rough

Though I think of you; silently

I cannot imagine what feelings I would have

If I thought otherwise

I see you; what is on your mind?

I just want to hold you close

I want to touch your hand

I can still feel; that feeling the embrace of our lips

For the first time

Give me a reason not to love you

The way that I do

I cannot find one!

– One Reason