Never in my life have I ever thought I would ever feel this way about a single person. These feelings I have come down within. I have to fight with these feelings at times, for these feelings I have I cannot explain.
On one side – I have deep emotional feelings of love, caring and trust Feelings of joy, happiness and of temptation. I have feelings I have never had before. Nobody has make me feel the way you make me feel My feelings are inexpressible; I cannot begin to touch the depth If you could imagine heaven … so peaceful, so quiet with fields of flowers … each one expressing the happiness you bring to my life A river extended to the eyes content, is my love for you that flows all so patiently and calmly Although these expressions are like a single grain of sand Imagine what a handful of that sand can say about my love … about my feelings About the amount of happiness you bring to my life.   The other side is dark – At first you expressed your love for me then took it away How are you to feel when something so special is taken from you? It is like a dark tunnel that extends to far to see The sides are hands reaching out trying to grab you To stop you … to toss you back and forth Their hands are scolding hot as sharp as razors As you run down this tunnel trying to keep away from the sides All you can think about is how your life could have been If only a chance was given … if only that love was true If only you could have done something better You keep running but there is no end Eventually you will get tired And then you will die.   Although both sided keep fighting with each other … how do I choose? There is no question, which I would choose It feels I have been pushed in the opposite direction I hope someday we can realize what went wrong … what could have changed? For it may be too late, when you are ready and I am not. I don’t want it to come to that However I feel that is what it is coming to … do I say farewell? You will always have a special place in my heart Now … and forever!   - Now and Forever